The Testimony of Jesus for this Next Season of 2019 and Beyond

Demontae Edmonds, Virginia Beach, VA

Dear friends and Believers,

On a recent morning when I awoke, I felt the Spirit of Prophecy (Rev. 19:10) stirring upon my soul. I have endeavored to type the words in the purity that they were given to me.

The Lord said to me, “This will be the season that even the most seasoned prophetic voice and seer proclaims 1 Corinthians 2:9, ‘Eye has not seen, nor ear has heard. Nor has it entered into the heart of men the things that God has prepared for those that love Him’ (emphasis added).

“There will be times that I will work miracles and wonders beyond the ability of My servants to see. It will be My sovereign hand and part of My sovereign plan. There are miracles of healing and miracles of deliverance, but these will be miracles of Me working all things together for the good of My people, for the good of My Kingdom, and for the good of those will inherit the promises of God.”

A New Release of Spiritual Fathers and Mothers

Cast out your net of faith and hope again, and prepare for a new measure of God’s grace and favor to be revealed.

The Lord says, “This is the year that the spiritual fathers, who themselves have been wounded, discouraged and disappointed, will begin to be healed so that they can stand in their position.

“I’m even releasing fathers and mothers for those who are already spiritual fathers and mothers, those who possess a greater wisdom and intimacy with Me, that can bring them into a new level of spiritual access and insight. This will have a trickle-down effect into My Body. These fathers and mothers who are being released will be men and women who walk in such a level of wholeness that they bring others into this wholeness in Christ.

“There will be spiritual sons and daughters of theirs who will possess greater charisma, spiritual gifting and intellect, but will be attracted to these fathers’ leadership because of their level of integrity, character, maturity and wholeness. These will be leaders who have overcome the Saul spirit and who will not be intimidated by the King Davids being reared up for the next generation by the Spirit of God. They will say in their hearts, ‘Yes, I have slain 1,000. Now it’s time for my sons and daughters to slay 10,000!'”

The Arising of God’s People

I hear the Lord saying, “While there has been a great emphasis on the apostles and prophets and the five-fold ministry in this hour, I will begin to emphasize the Spirit of God arising in My people. There will be such demonstrations of God done by those who are not in the pulpit, that it will cause many to wonder and be in awe.

“As My people rise up in a revelation of who they are in Me and who I am in them, there will be whole congregations at a time swept into the moving of My Spirit and the working of the divine giftings of My Spirit. In many of these churches, now, I have been digging the wells of revival, wells of anointing, and wells of evangelism in the hearts and minds of the leaders and congregations for the last three years. Even as My Spirit hovered over the face of the deep and then began to bring life into existence, so My Spirit has been hovering over these wells I have dug in churches and communities and will begin to bring forth a harvest of glory in this hour to come.”

The Golden Armor of the Apostle

The Lord showed me in a vision a man dressed in golden armor, pointing a large broadsword and proclaiming in a loud and bold voice, “Full speed ahead!” to a cavalry force behind him. At first I thought it might be the Lord Jesus, Himself, but the Holy Spirit bore witness to my spirit that this vision was symbolic of the level He is bringing many of the apostles into in this next season. He said, “There will be those apostles who graduate into a new dimension of revelation, authority, and power. They shall stand in a full measure of apostolic wisdom and anointing. They shall wear the golden armor of the apostle. This armor not only stops the attacks of the enemy but it reveals the divine nature of My Son, Jesus, to all who come into contact with these vessels.”

“Have I not said in My Word (Rev. 3:18), ‘Come buy of Me gold refined in the fire’? (emphasis added).These are those apostles who have allowed Me to refine them in the fire of My love and the fire of My righteousness through many hardships, persecutions, intense spiritual warfare, rejections, being misunderstood, mishandled, and the dealings of My Spirit. They have submitted themselves to the process of My Spirit and learned strict obedience. Hence they will be those who ‘LEAD THE CHARGE’ of the army of the Lord. They will usher the children of God into the ‘Golden Apostolic Age’ where the Church of the Lord Jesus Christ rises up into the fullness of its potential in the earth.”

Full Speed Ahead!

The Lord said, “In your time you have seen the apostolic in a measure here and a measure there. In this next season it won’t be the talk of the apostolic; the word and term won’t need to be mentioned. Notable miracles and notable supernatural feats will be their portion and the norm within their ministries. These acts won’t be limited to the mission fields or dark corners of the earth. There shall be such an activation of My people mobilized under these golden apostles, and such a demonstration of the supernatural, that everyone will know and see it!

“As My people rise up in a revelation of who they are in Me, and who I am in them, there will be whole congregations at a time swept into the moving of My Spirit and the working of the divine giftings of My Spirit.“”

“These will be the ones who help restore honor to My name and shift the focus back to the glory due My Son, Jesus, the Anointed One. Their thoughts, heartbeats, and spirits will be so in-tune with Mine that they will not lose time or momentum. They will be able to proclaim, ‘Full speed ahead!’ with boldness because of the direct visitation and heavenly encounters that they shall have with Me. Their confidence and level of faith will seem unstoppable. They will teach, train, and lead the people of God into possessing their inheritance in Me.”

An Aligning of Prophetic and Apostolic Leaders

“This is the time that the prophets will begin to align themselves with apostolic leaders and apostolic voices who will bring greater meaning to their prophetic utterances. There won’t just be prophetic words that do not take shape and form. There will be an acceleration of purpose and destiny as the prophetic words merge with apostolic vision, as cement and water combine to create a concrete foundation.”

“I’m building My Church, as I originally purposed, through the foundation of the holy apostles and prophets with Jesus Christ being the chief cornerstone (Eph. 2:20). I’m calling, from the benches and from the dark places, prophets who will ‘SEE’ like never before in this hour. I’m giving vision and refreshing to ‘now prophets’ who will speak words that are relevant for the time, seasons, and situations of the present tense. They shall speak directly into the happenings within society and into the dealings of My Spirit with the Church at large.”

I heard the Lord say, “I’m raising up teachers who will not just teach line upon line and precept upon precept, but the very spirit of revelation shall come upon them to cause them to teach out of a prophetic stream of truth.”

I saw in the spirit a man, in front of a large congregation, teaching the people while holding a very large, over-sized Bible in his hands. God spoke to my spirit, “It shall not be those who just teach words of inspiration and encouragement, but there shall be a return of anointed teachers who will teach doctrine, who will teach soundness, and who will teach My people to discern between the holy and the profane. These men and women will be My secret weapon to expose and hold back the enemy’s plan to bring contamination into My House through false doctrine, false teaching, and false practices not inspired by My Word or Spirit. They will back everything with Scripture and dismantle the spirit of error that has increased in this age.

“While there has been such a love and desire for the gifts, they will impart a renewed love for the Scriptures and My Word. False prophets who operate in occult power, filthy living, and filthy lucre will not be able to stand before these anointed teachers of the Word of God.”

A Catastrophe Prevented

In a vision, I saw a train derailing off of the rails and crashing. The Lord spoke to me, “I shall prevent catastrophe within your nation (the USA). Many will speak, prophesy, and forecast devastation within the nation and a derailment within the government…but I will, by divine intervention, place things on the tracks that I have designed. Coupled with this shall be a fresh breath upon the message of repentance. Even as the spirit of rebellion increases, My angels will be working overtime to bring people into repentance. I have raised up agents who will share My love and forgiveness with those in the media, those in Hollywood, those in the government, those in athletics, and those in the highest seats of corporate America.”

2019: The Year of Surprises

The Lord spoke in the hearing of my ear to tell the people of God, “Expect the year of 2019 to be a year of surprises. People will be surprised by who I use greatly in the earth. People will be surprised by those I raise from the background to the forefront. People will be surprised by the level of glory and miracles I will, at times, release. Many will be surprised by the multiplication of wealth that shows up in their lives and ministries. Many will be surprised by the successes they have in areas they only once knew failure.”

2019 is the year the Spirit of the Lord says, “Do not quit. Do not give up on God.” Cast out your net of faith and hope again, and prepare for a new measure of God’s grace and favor to be revealed.”

Demontae Edmonds
Freedom 4 the Nations



Prepare the Way for the King and His Kingdom

prepare the wayWayland Henderson, Arlington, Texas

Prepare for 20/20 Vision

There have been several voices proclaiming 2019 will be a year of preparation on several levels, which I am in agreement with as I have received similar words. As I pressed into this particular word “prepare” coming into 2019, I knew that it was imperative to understand so we could be properly positioned for the shifting that is already happening. I was shown in 2011 that we were in a ten-year window (2010-2020) where God is cleansing the prophetic eyesight of His Bride to restore normal prophetic vision (20/20) for what is to come.

Just as in Genesis 1:31, when evening and morning were the first day, the new day is dawning – though to many it is still dark. The early Semitic translation of Genesis 1:31 reveals that the first day started in unified chaos, meaning: though darkness (chaos) was present, light was emerging. There is shaking, sifting and shifting happening, as the voice of one who cries out in the wilderness calls: “Prepare the way of the Lord!”

The Voice Crying Out in the Wilderness

It was John the Baptist who came in the spirit and power of Elijah, and was “the voice” in Isaiah proclaiming to Israel to prepare the way for the King. In Isaiah 40:3 the Hebrew word for “prepare” is “panah” which also means to turn, and is the singular form of “paniym” which means face or presence; thus the full meaning is: turn back to the face or His presence. As the voice of the John the forerunner cried out in the wilderness, he was turning Israel back to God’s face or His presence. As John the Baptist was preaching repentance, he was telling Israel to turn back to God’s presence or His face, so that they would recognize the face of the coming King! According to Isaiah 40:5, it would prepare the people to see His glory because He is the King of glory!

“The glory of the Lord shall be revealed, and all flesh shall see it together; for the mouth of the Lord has spoken.” (Isaiah 40:5)

Recognizing the Face of the King

We are in a time when the face of King Jesus is unrecognizable to many. We are in desperate need of forerunning voices who will sound the alarm for the Church. Let’s repent of adding any man-made belief systems and structures to fill the void of not seeing His face and experiencing His presence. Repentance, or a turning back to His presence, is necessary not because the King is coming, but because He is already here and we are in danger of missing our day of visitation. As John the Baptist ministered in his day, Jesus the King was already on the earth!

It may be dark and chaos may seem to be all around us, but the alarm is sounding for us to arise and shine for the light of His glory is coming. There are levels and dimensions of glory that are coming from within and upon a people who have learned to turn and run toward His face with thirst and hunger. This type of pursuit will produce union with the King of glory and allow every false image to be consumed in the fire of His presence.

Prepare for Kingdom Culture

An entire new culture is coming with the King and we are about to transition in a way that we have not gone before in our generation. Therefore, we cannot afford to halt between two opinions. The King is coming, not just to have a revival and glory meetings (which we will experience), but to establish His people in the culture of the King.

Forerunners of the coming shift are going to cause a major shaking, sifting, and shifting as the sound of the voice from the future begins to be heard in the present. It will cause every crooked road to be made straight, every rough place smooth, every valley to be filled, and every high place to come down to make way for the King of glory. Lift up your heads, lift up your gates and let the King of glory come in!

Wayland Henderson
Greater Works Generation Ministries


Follow Me into the Acceleration Zone!”

breaking soundVince Viozzi, Palmyra, PA

Acceleration for Redeeming the Time

We have been repeatedly hearing the theme about this being a season of acceleration. Repetition is one of God’s ways of telling us that He is trying to get us to really listen and understand what He is saying.

So I began to ask the Lord, “What is the purpose of this acceleration? Lord, why are You emphasizing this particular issue over and over again? What is it that You are trying to accomplish with this season of acceleration?”

“Many of My Josephs who have borne the trials and tribulations of the prisons are poised to become great leaders in My Kingdom!”

God doesn’t do anything haphazardly. He always moves with wise intentionality and eternal purpose! He has a plan and a purpose for everything He is doing. He is trying to accomplish and establish something that will set the stage for the following seasons.

Revival and reformation have a purpose! They are not just for giggles and goosebumps. Their divine purpose is to redeem as much as possible while the opportunity is available to do so. Redemption and reconciliation to God are the underlying themes of all that Jesus came to do. He wants to reconcile the world to Himself and to redeem, to re-obtain, to regain ownership of that which was handed over to His adversary!

Here is what I feel the Lord is revealing to me:

Colossians 4:5 (NKJV), “Walk in wisdom toward those who are outside, redeeming the time.”

Ephesians 5:15-17 (NKJV), “See then that you walk circumspectly, not as fools but as wise, redeeming the time, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be unwise, but understand what the will of the Lord is.”

Revelation 2:17 (NKJV), “He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches. To him who overcomes I will give some of the hidden manna to eat…”

The Time Is Short

1 Corinthians 7:29,31 (NKJV), “But this I say, brethren, the time is short…For the form of this world is passing away.”

Unfortunately, many of us still don’t perceive all that is happening at this season of time. The political situation in America and the world was given to us for a divine purpose! We were shown great mercy and given a divine opportunity to be game changers and world changers for the purposes of God’s Kingdom. We can often get side-tracked and do not comprehend what it is that God is really after here. Simply put, He is trying to redeem every man, woman and child on the earth. He wants every soul—no one left behind!

Yes, it is a sad thing that there are evil people who will not repent and some are acting extremely evil and they are doing everything in their own power to hinder all that God desires to do. So when we are given an opportunity that will allow for a vast number of souls to be led into God’s Kingdom, then we need to do as much as possible, as quickly as possible, in order to reap the greatest harvest that this season can produce!

The Acceleration Zone

When man was finally able to BREAKTHROUGH the sound barrier, the result was the ability to fly at a much higher velocity, to get to places much faster and to accomplish more in a shorter amount of time than ever before! Hence—a “Zone of Acceleration”!

“The speed of sound is the distance traveled per unit time by a sound wave as it propagates through an elastic medium. At 20 °C, the speed of sound in air is about 343 meters per second…or a kilometer in 2.9 s or a mile in 4.7 s. It depends strongly on temperature” (Wikipedia). (Temperature can represent for us a type of the spiritual climate we are in!)

So what is the speed of light? “Put simply, light moves at incredible speeds and is the fastest moving thing in the Universe. Its speed is considered a constant and an unbreakable barrier, and is used as a means of measuring distance.

“But just how fast does it travel? Light travels at a constant speed of 1,079,252,848.8 (1.07 billion) km per hour. That works out to 299,792,458 m/s, or about 670,616,629 mph (miles per hour). To put that in perspective, if you could travel at the speed of light, you would be able to circumnavigate the globe approximately seven and a half times in one second. Meanwhile, a person flying at an average speed of about 800 km/h (500 mph), would take over 50 hours to circle the planet just once once.” (

Warp Speed

I’m sure some of you are Star Trek fans, yes? For those of us who are intrigued with the incredible insights that Gene Roddenberry had when he created the television series Star Trek, the command that Captain Kirk would give Chief Helmsman Sulu was “Warp speed, Sulu.” Warp speed was considered to be equivalent to traveling at the speed of light or faster. Each increase in the warp factor was to represent a multiplied factor of traveling faster than the speed of light.

It is interesting that the first words God used in creating this realm of existence were, “Let there be light” (Genesis 1:3)!

Fast Forward to Jesus

The Apostle John said this in John 1:1-9 (NKJV), “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things were made through Him, and without Him nothing was made that was made. In Him was life, and the life was the light of men. And the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not comprehend it.”

…He is trying to redeem every man, woman and child on the earth. He wants every soul—no one left behind!

“There was a man sent from God, whose name was John. This man came for a witness, to bear witness of the Light, that all through him might believe. He was not that Light, but was sent to bear witness of that Light. That was the true Light which gives light to every man coming into the world.”

The Prophet Isaiah said this in Isaiah 9:2 (NKJV), “The people who walked in darkness have seen a great light; those who dwelt in the land”

The Light Factor

This may be getting kind of technical for some, but here is the bottom line of the Light Factor: “…light moves at incredible speeds and is the fastest moving thing in the Universe. Its speed is considered a constant and an unbreakable barrier, and is used as a means of measuring distance.” (

I hear the Lord saying to His people: “‘Warp Speed,’ My people! It is time to move faster than ever before to accomplish My purposes! You are an unbreakable barrier and will go great distances and enter into realms that have yet to be seen by My people! For My ‘suddenlies’ are upon you and also times of quick transitions.”

Matthew 5:14-16 (NKJV), “You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. Nor do they light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a lampstand, and it gives light to all who are in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in Heaven.”

The Josephs Are Being Released!

Genesis 41:14 (NKJV), “Then Pharaoh sent and called Joseph, and they brought him quickly (suddenly!) out of the dungeon; and he shaved, changed his clothing, and came to Pharaoh” (emphasis mine).

The Lord says, “Many of My Josephs who have borne the trials and tribulations of the prisons are poised to become great leaders in My Kingdom! Great assignments await you, and with those assignments are great anointings, the likes of which you have not felt before!”

Accelerated Assignments and Quick Transitions

Jesus didn’t allow Himself to be lead by needs or popular opinion. Many times He moved to another assignment quickly because He saw the Father doing something else and somewhere else through Him!

Luke 4:42-43 (NKJV), “Now when it was day, He departed and went into a deserted place. And the crowd sought Him and came to Him, and tried to keep Him from leaving them; but He said to them, ‘I must preach the Kingdom of God to the other cities also, because for this purpose I have been sent.'”

This happened to Paul as well in a different way. Acts 22:17-21 (NKJV), “Now it happened, when I returned to Jerusalem and was praying in the temple, that I was in a trance and saw Him saying to me, ‘Make haste and get out of Jerusalem quickly, for they will not receive your testimony concerning Me.’ So I said, ‘Lord, they know that in every synagogue I imprisoned and beat those who believe on You. And when the blood of Your martyr Stephen was shed, I also was standing by consenting to his death, and guarding the clothes of those who were killing him.’ Then He said to me, ‘Depart, for I will send you far from here to the Gentiles.'”

Whatever the Catalyst, the Destination Is the Key

The Lord says, “There are places to go and people to be reached with the Gospel! Do not set your eyes on the catalyst, but rather set your eyes on the joy set before you and preach My Word wherever you go! What you do, do it quickly, for some of you will move from here to there on various assignments before settling back down in one place again. Lay up treasures for yourselves in Heaven and come follow Me into the ‘Acceleration Zone’!”

Vince Viozzi
Vince Viozzi Ministries

I found this a good read because we hear so much about accelerating and redeeming the time but we sit and wonder what that means to us? I seem to be moving the same speed, doing the same things and see no open doors anywhere. I’m sure I’m not alone in that summary … I’ve seen no suddenlies, no speeding of time and no answers to promises made years ago. I just get up every day hoping, praying and believing there will be a change and I’m sure many of you do the same. I get angry with God, I cry a lot and want to give up and then I go back to doing what is put before me and find articles like this that give me a tiny light of hope and I share it with you!

2019 A Year of Extreme Revelation

This is a long article but worth the read. Things are going to happen and change this year and we who know God personally need to be ready, stay close to Him at all cost and hold our faith that He will bring us through what may be a very rough ride.

Johnny Enlow, Santa Clarita, CA

We have entered into perhaps the most revelatory year since the birth of Jesus and because of it, none of us will ever be the same. A day of so much disclosure is now upon us and by this time next year, we will be amazed at how different our world actually is from what we thought. The light we presently see by today, we will consider as relative darkness compared to where we will have advanced to by 2020. It will be an exceptional and even shocking revelation.

Let’s look at two definitions for the word “revelation” for some parameters on what I am talking about. Revelation:

1) A surprising and previously unknown fact, especially one that is made way in a dramatic way.
2) The divine or supernatural disclosure to humans.

The 5770-5779 Window is Completed

For those who follow the Hebraic Calendar, you know that the present 5779 year is closing out a most important decade. In the number 70 there is the Hebrew letter Ayin associated with it and it carries the picture symbol for the eye. For the 2010-2019 decade the primary focus has been on SEEING. I have covered that fact in virtually every year of this 5770-5779 decade. Battles are won and lost at the point of SEEING. As we remember ancient Israel, the difference in a “Caleb” and “10 spies” is that “Caleb’s” are anointed seers and “10 spies” are unanointed seers.

Revelation and the glory that accompanies revelation are increasingly going to be the fruit of 2019.

The Body of Christ is in the process of shifting from following unanointed seers who keep the people locked in a wilderness-survival mentality, to following seers who lead them into the “Promised Land” of cities and nations. It is the Church’s great battle of the day, and a “fake news” narrative is being exposed and progressively abandoned. Unanointed seers unduly highlight the enemy, miss the moment of visitation, and keep the people “wilderness bound” under a premature rapture mindset.

Anointed seers see the enemy but highlight the greatness of God and His promise of inheriting the nations, as we are “salt” and “light” in the 7 mountains of society. Unanointed seers tell us, “We’re getting out of here,” while anointed seers declare the Kingdom coming “on Earth as it is in Heaven.” We are disconnecting the fake narrative IVs and returning to Jesus’ original message of inheriting the earth (Matthew 5:5). God builds a plan of destiny around the anointed seers even while they are the profound minority, as in Caleb and Joshua’s case where His plan was built around the two who could see.

Now about the 9 in 5779 and in 2019. The number nine in the Hebrew has the letter Tet in it, which is the picture/symbol of either a snake or a womb. They are both highlighted this year. The snake in the grass will be discovered by those with Caleb’s eagle eyes, and the tearing up of that snake will allow for birthing and fruitfulness. The snake in the grass will be exposed this year and you will either capitulate to it or destroy the lies and fear associated with it and arise and shine to your destiny.

The key is to see the snake from an eagle’s perspective and not from a chicken’s perspective. A snake is food for an eagle while a chicken will freak out and run from a snake. The window of properly SEEING gets completed this year and what becomes visible in 2019 will exceed the totality of the previous nine years of seeing. It will be almost like we didn’t see anything in the last decade.

Rosh Hashanah of this year we will enter the 5780s and that represents a whole new beginning based on proper seeing. A year from now we will begin the year 2020 and the numerology will not be coincidental. 20/20 vision is coming and that is where divine objectivity rules. God is seen and magnified. The enemy is also seen, but he is not magnified and so he becomes “bread” for us (Numbers 14:9).

Revelation in Government: Trump Will Get Louder

“And when the blast of the TRUMP sounded long and became louder and louder, Moses spoke, and God answered him, by voice.” (Exodus 19:19 emphasis mine)

One of the areas of profound blindness right now for many Christians is understanding the role of President Donald Trump. As 45th president of the United States he carries an Isaiah 45 “Cyrus anointing” to break down the “double, bronze and iron gates of Babylon” (Isaiah 45:1-2). This is an assignment to dislodge and eliminate embedded and syndicated evil in government. The tentacles are at the tops of all the 7 mountains of society (media, economy, education, family, arts/entertainment, religion and government) and the tops of all the mountains are going to have their evil “gatekeepers” removed.

It is a historic moment for the Kingdom of God. Because of it, in 2019 Trump is not going to tone down and weaken his approach. He is going to become stronger and his voice will become louder and louder. He is not going to fail in his assignment and it will be a testament not to his greatness, but to the greatness of God.

Despite Trump’s billions, his friends and his influence, he is far too limited to take on what he has been called to take on. It is God’s anointing on him for the assignment that covers and emboldens him. Our nation will be known as “before Trump” and “after Trump.” The Lord also clearly spoke to me that the whole world will be known as “before Trump” and “after Trump.” I am neither a Trump fan, nor a Republican fan, nor even a Conservative fan. I am a God fan. Trump is God’s idea, and though God is patient, the sooner you recognize that truth the sooner it will be evidence of your seeing being anointed. Once you begin to discover the level of evil against him, you will no longer ask the irrelevant question of, “How could God pick such an imperfect man?” What he lacks in holiness he makes up for in courage, and ultimately his courage is going to lead him into holiness.

When God is taking people into new territory He looks first for courage. His demand of Joshua in Joshua 1:7 was, “Only be strong and very courageous,” and He said that over and over. Once you see the “deep state” of the 7 mountains and of the nations you realize it takes GREAT courage. Working on holiness comes later, but when you are facing enemies bigger than yourself it is courage that sustains you. Before Trump is done he will have leveled and replaced most of our ruling institutions and will have been a part of discovering a previously unknown history of the world of the last century. It will be a great reveal and a most significant part of this year of extreme revelation.

Can Trump Fail in His Assignment?

Can Trump fail in his assignment? This is a concern and a question that many Trump supporters have, and more especially so as they begin to see the extreme dangers that he is up against. Well, I suppose humans can always disappoint and can always fail. I suppose we could be too slack in our prayer cover for him. I suppose his age and the size of the task before him could overwhelm him. However, the greatness of our God is that it is His trademark that He loves to execute His great plans with fragile or imperfect people. He loves to confound the wise of this world by using His “foolishness” (1 Corinthians 1:27). Except for in the case of Jesus; He NEVER used overwhelming strength or perfection to accomplish His better story-lines.

Gideon, the least in his house and tribe, led Israel to victory over the Midianites. Moses, the octogenarian with a speech impediment, led Israel out of Egypt. David, the shepherd boy, took out the scary giant, Goliath, with a small stone. Mary, the teenage girl, births THE Son of God. Even with Jesus, He never used His overwhelming strength but laid down all His divinity. He then chose the local redneck fishermen to be His twelve apostles upon which everything thereafter would be built.

So can Trump fail? Yes, but I don’t think so. This has all the makings of a great God-story. Keeping Trump alive and healthy is a much easier task for God than it was to keep Jesus alive in His day when not only was the “deep state” out to prematurely kill Him, but every demon in Hell desired His “scalp.” Until He was age thirty-three and until it was THE day of Passover, Jesus could not be killed. Yes, Trump could fail, but God will not. Were he somehow able to be taken out early it would only make way for a more amazing story of God’s greatness. His NEXT always outdoes even His original. He is the “bigger-than” God with the “greater-than” plan. That’s just who He is. It is not over until Psalms 37:9 is in effect: “For evildoers shall be cut off; but those who wait on the Lord, they shall inherit the earth.” You can take Psalm 37:1-2 as a prophetic word for NOW:

“Do not fret because of evildoers, nor be envious of the workers of iniquity. For they shall soon be cut down like the grass, and wither as the green herb.”

“Workers of iniquity” are the present target for the zeal and justice of the Lord. His first offer is always mercy, but justice has to come because justice is the evidence to the abused that God has mercy on them. Those who have been sex-trafficked, enslaved, and otherwise abused are about to be the beneficiaries of the justice of God. There is no freedom for the enslaved without justice. President Donald Trump is an emissary of the justice of God, and I believe God is quite pleased with how well he has done since being elected president. His courage is seen as heroic in Heaven because they see what he is up against. This year enough of that gets revealed to the Body of Christ so that we stop the finger pointing. President Trump was not called to be your pastor so let’s quit putting that standard on him.

Revelation in Church: Exposures and Prophetic Upgrades

“So he departed from there, and found Elisha the son of Shaphat, who was plowing…Then Elijah passed by him and threw his mantle on him.” (1 Kings 19:19)

This is the passage where Elijah anoints Elisha and he receives the double portion of what was on Elijah. Elisha, with that upgrade, is the catalyst for Jezebel being easily dealt with. Jezebel was someone Elijah was not able to deal with. Elisha, through Jehu, overthrew Jezebel in a very public and demonstrable way. President Trump also has a Jehu anointing. Jezebel at a macro level is being dealt with this year, and it is not coincidental that it is 1 Kings 19:19 that tells of the release of the double portion. The new extreme revelation is going to place and displace “Kings” (government rulers). Both the name of the book and the double on the 19s are significant.

The snake in the grass will be exposed this year and you will either capitulate to it or destroy the lies and fear associated with it and arise and shine to your destiny.

The Church will experience two different versions of this extreme revelation. First of all, there will be shocking disclosures of evil and corruption, and even networks of deep darkness. The Church has its own version of the “deep state” and it is going to be exposed as well. Some significant exposures took place in 2018, but there is a whole other level in both the Catholic church as well as the Evangelical/Charismatic/Pentecostal church. Many churches and church networks operate by a similar creed to how Hollywood and high government positions run. In these places, the “gatekeepers” at the places of influence require some behavior that is able to be blackmailed so that their loyalty and silence is bought forever. Blackmail is the currency of the tops of the mountains and it is going to be exposed in the mountain of religion as well. In church circles it is often mixed and mingled with religious speech so that it doesn’t look like blackmail, but it is blackmail.

I remember decades ago being a part of a church whose lead bishop would often say that he didn’t trust anyone “who didn’t have a limp” and connected it to the Jacob in the Bible. What was revealed was that this bishop had seduced at least ten women in the church, and it also included pedophilia. The “not trusting anyone without a limp” showed up in that no significant associate pastor or leader was advanced who they didn’t have some dirt on. Not surprisingly, he had great loyalty from these pastors and leaders, even when the full truth came out, because they were “blackmail-able.” There is way more of this going on than seems possible—be prepared for shocks regarding that in 2019. In mega churches this is actually more the norm than the exception, but you won’t have to take my word for it. A year of extreme revelation is upon us.

Prophetic Upgrades

This is the other side of the coin of advanced revelation, but sometimes they will go hand-in-hand, as the prophetic upgrades will cause a new level of holiness. I remember some time ago in Peru where a pastor’s wife was taken by the Holy Spirit and for weeks was in and out of a trance and could speak only in tongues. It was quite inconvenient. When she finally could communicate she was in an open Heaven realm seeing everything, including the sins of their key leaders and members—including when and where. It was amazing how the church cleaned itself up. The pastor himself told me it was tough for him because it was like “sleeping with the Holy Spirit” and he had no choice but to get totally clean himself. It is amazing what being under an increased light does to us.

Seeing is going to another level. This is something we desperately need as our prophetic level is relatively pathetic at this time, even often under-performing to psychics and “new age” energy feelers. One reason for this is that the enemy has stolen the prophetic from much of the Church through demonic doctrines that say the age for this has passed. This is truly a “deep state” doctrine that has stripped the Church from perhaps its most vital tool for spreading the love and power of God. As Paul said in 1 Corinthians 14:5, “I wish you all would prophesy” (emphasis mine), and a prophesying Church will always be more fruitful. We have other reasons for our low level of prophetic revelation, such as lack of prophetic accountability and also conversely a lack of a nurturing environment for the prophetic. The ones zealous for accountability would kill the prophetic if left to their devices, and the ones only nurturing the prophetic tend to keep it about quantity above quality. We need both.

Another suppressor of the next level in the prophetic is when the exercise is disconnected from our reformation (outside the Church) assignment. The prophetic was made to thrive in the seven mountains of society. My prophetic level has always been less in and to the Church, and increased when outside the Church. Having said that, I am first in line desiring the promised prophetic upgrades. I want to be positively shocked at how much I am seeing and how much transformational change it engenders. I look forward to stepping into clarity where we not only prophesy sometimes-fuzzy outcomes like “double portion,” “breakthrough,” “shift,” “prosperity,” “a door,” “a window”—but we also can flesh out what that actually looks like. The upgrade is coming this year because it is tied into knowing some macro things we never knew before; some things we haven’t been able to see because we have had the wrong facts and operated to a wrong narrative based on the presumed facts. You will know more about what I am talking about as the year progresses.

Perhaps the greatest key in getting a prophetic upgrade is staying out of pride. There have been so many who have become “head cases” when they finally saw something truly revelatory that they ceased getting more secrets from God, as God resists the proud. Hopefully there are so many with the next level of revelation that this is no longer a reality. Either way, I will tell you that the children born in this decade of seeing (Generation Z) are going to be true game-changer seers and prophets and will require us to upgrade if nothing else does. Status quo revelation has not been getting it done and the next level is coming along with the next level of glory.

Watch the Sixty-Seven Mile Wide Path of Totality

Back in August 21, 2017 we had a most unusual phenomenon of a total solar eclipse from sea to shining sea of the United States. There was a sixty-seven mile wide path where the eclipse phenomenon could be viewed in its entirety. It started on the coast of Oregon with the cities of Salem and Albany, Oregon being the first significant state in the path, and finished out at Charleston, South Carolina. A total of seven cities named Salem were in this path. I spoke back in 2017 that the sixty-seven mile wide pathway all across the USA represented a path of prophetic open heavens. I believe that only now are we truly entering into the spiritual fulfillment of what was a natural phenomenon. This band across the nation includes cities such as Albany (home of The Elijah List), Omaha, Kansas City, and Nashville which are cities where significant prophetic ministries have arisen, and are regular voices to the nation and nations. I believe the entire sixty-seven mile wide band to represent a pathway of heightened prophetic revelation.

Psalm 67 starts with this verse, “God be merciful to us and bless us, and cause His face to shine upon us, that Your way may be known on the earth; Your salvation among all nations.”

This prophetic upgrade is ultimately His face shining on us so that we may make His ways known on the earth and His salvation among ALL nations. Revelation and the glory that accompanies revelation are increasingly going to be the fruit of 2019. Exodus 19:19 was about the glory descending on Israel in Moses’ day. 1 Kings 19:19 was about the double portion prophetic mantle from Elijah being released to Elisha. God was able to encode timing factors for us about the new level of glory and revelation. We are in yet another game-changer year, but I think it is perhaps the greatest one in centuries and especially so for revelation and disclosure.

Johnny Enlow
Johnny and Elizabeth


In 2019 God Says, ‘Come Up Higher!'”


I heard the Lord say, “The year 2019 is a year that I am calling My children to come up higher. There is revelation being given to those who hear this invitation and act upon it. As My Church draws nearer to Me, I will open doors of understanding and wisdom. As I release more understanding and godly wisdom to My Church, expect increase! Understanding and wisdom will activate the atmosphere for prosperity, inventions, medical breakthroughs and miracles. I am going to reveal many hidden mysteries concerning dreams and visions in this season.

“The enemy has been attempting to steal your dreams and I say to you: My Beloved, I am shutting the door to the thief that has attempted to steal, kill and destroy. I will shut the door to Pharaoh in this season. I am shutting the door to bondage and torment. Many have been attempting to move forward but are still hindered by the past.

“Know this: I am cutting you loose from your captivity and I am opening doors to freedom! Many doors will be opened by My hand in 2019. Be watchful, for I will prove to you that the Kingdom of Heaven is at hand! Yes, the Kingdom of Heaven is within your reach. Reach out your hand to Me and I will take you higher! I say to you again: Church, come up higher as I have much to reveal to you in this season.”

Revelation in the Night Seasons

Going up higher brings us to heavenly realms where revelation is given and revelation always involves divine encounters.

Just before 2019, I began to hear the Lord minister to me about going higher in Him. I realized that this is not something that I can do on my own, it is a heavenly invitation. And also, it is a completely supernatural experience! Since I can’t go higher on my own, I asked the Lord how this was to happen. He then spoke to me about His holy angels who would take me to higher levels through the revelation they would bring during the night seasons.

He explained that while I will be sleeping, the angels will bring heavenly encounters and impart God’s guidance and wisdom to me. Many times these revelations will show up in my dreams, and at other times there will be direct impartations. I have had divine encounters with angels before – they have occurred as I have slept – so I understood completely that God will use my dream time to impart to me.

I have also had divine encounters during open visions. Since visions are more “matter of fact” and need little interpretation, I know that visions will also increase in this season because God is increasing revelation. So, precious Believer, expect an increase of visions! Always keep in mind that dreams and visions are supernatural encounters and God is speaking through them today!

Begin to Dream with God Again!

Let me explain. I am referring to having goals, desires and plans for your life and future. These types of dreams are not dreams in the night season where God interjects His direction, correction and/or destiny during your dreams. But rather, these dreams are deep desires for your life that you want fulfilled. God cares about those dreams and He is saying that He wants you dreaming again! The enemy has brought interruptions, discouragement, disappointments and has attempted to steal from you, but it’s time to run with those dreams again!

Many of God’s children are called to be inventors. As God promises to release understanding and wisdom, there will be many new inventions coming forth. Though Solomon wasn’t necessarily an inventor, due to his wisdom Israel enjoyed great prosperity. During Solomon’s reign there was peace and Israel became a leading nation in commerce and industry. Some historians give Israel credit for many mining inventions that date back to Solomon’s time. We are entering into a season of favor with God. As we grow in wisdom and understanding, it will open up doors to great opportunities and inventions that bring great wealth. Believe for it! (Photo via Unsplash)

God is Releasing You from Pharaoh!

The Lord spoke clearly to me about His destroying Pharaoh this year. I am reminded of the passage in Ezekiel 30:21 which says, “Son of man, I have broken the arm of Pharaoh king of Egypt…”

Pharaoh represents anything that attempts to hold you captive. Many of God’s children are in bondage to addiction, sin, betrayal, rejection and fear. This is the year to be delivered from all bondages…but especially from fear! Fear will cause us to walk in continual unbelief. I know this for a fact because I have personally been delivered from the spirit of unbelief. Unbelief short-circuits your faith! It is a stronghold that affects nations, families and regions. Remember, it was because of unbelief that Jesus could not do many miracles in a certain regions/territories. This proves that when unbelief is active, it robs us of the full manifestation of the Kingdom of God being demonstrated. This is the year to challenge every unbelief structure in our lives.

One way to move past fear is to face it head on. Rather than run away, face your fear. I remember at one time in my life, I was afraid of the dark. I literally could not go to sleep in the dark! I went to sleep every night with the lights on in my bedroom. I finally had to face it head on. I turned out the lights and remained in the dark as I quoted the Word and proclaimed, “I do not have the spirit of fear!” Finally, I got delivered, but not until I faced fear head-on.

Someone reading this article is afraid of rejection. Well, precious one, this is your year to be delivered. Don’t be afraid of rejection. Face your fear by developing new relationships. Don’t allow fear of rejection to creep in. Rebuke that fear and enjoy new friends! Yes, face it head on! God promises to restore all that was lost in 2019—even friends and relationships!

And, as you do face fear head on, remember to quote the Word concerning that fear. There are two of the most powerful words in the universe that we all need to use…those words are “I Am!” God reminds us of who He is by saying “I Am!” He told Moses to tell Pharaoh that “I AM” sent him to deliver His people. As you face your past fear, declare “I Am!”

Say to your Pharaoh:

“I am not afraid!”
“I am healed!”
“I am delivered!”
“I am experiencing breakthrough!”
“I am prosperous!”
“I am loved!”
“I am special!”

I am cutting you loose from your captivity and I am opening doors to freedom!

Whatever it is that you need to confess for your breakthrough, use those two powerful words in your declaration. When you do this, you are agreeing with God’s covenant concerning you.

The Kingdom of Heaven is at Hand!

God says a lot about His mighty arm in Scripture. God is literally rolling up His sleeves this year to fight the enemy for us. Isaiah 52:10 tells us that God is laying bare His holy arm. This means that God is about to show forth His mighty strength. Believers, He is getting in the battle with you and fighting for you! 2019 is your year of victory as He promises to show off His mighty strength.

And, He also speaks about His hand. All through Scripture God speaks about protecting His children with His mighty hand! His hand is there for you right now! Take His mighty hand. He is your protector. He is protecting you from your enemy!

And there’s more. He even says that with His “finger,” He delivers us from the powers of satan! Jesus said this about delivering us from the evil one in Luke 11:20, “But if I drive out the demons by the finger of God, then the Kingdom of God has [already] come upon you.”

Deliverance will increase in 2019 because it is a year where the Kingdom of God is at hand. Yes, it’s within hand’s reach! Everywhere Jesus went He preached the Kingdom message. Jesus said that when we preach the Gospel, heal the sick, cast out demons and raise the dead we are demonstrating the Kingdom! We will begin to see a greater release of the manifestation of Heaven on Earth this year.

Going Up Higher

When God calls us higher, it’s for a purpose. He wants to share Heaven’s wisdom and release greater understanding. Going up higher brings us to heavenly realms where revelation is given and revelation always involves divine encounters. Prepare yourself now for an increase of divine encounters. He wants to reveal His glory in this season!

I pray for each of you to experience God’s richest blessings this year. I pray that your dreams manifest and that you prosper in all that you do.

Many have been asking which of my books will empower them for this season. I would like to recommend any of these found on Elijah List’s Website:

Understanding Your Dreams: How the Unlock the Meaning of God’s Messages. This book is unique as it discusses deliverance that occurs in your dreams. Many do not understand how God exposes generational curses through dreams. Also, I teach you how to interpret your dreams in this book. And, there’s so much more including 40 pages of symbols and interpretation!

Faith After Failure: How to Reconnect with Your Destiny. If you want to get past your past, then this book is for you. Reconnect with God’s dream for your life!

Letting God of Your Limitations. This book helps you experience a limitless life. If you have been in bondage with religious performance, perfectionism, fear, rejection, or any hindrance, you need to read this so that 2019 is a year of experiencing God’s very best!

I’m expecting to hear testimonies of how God broke you out of failure and fear and with His strong arm delivered you and set you free! And also how God opened the door to great breakthrough, healing and prosperity in 2019!

In Him,

Sandie Freed
Sandie Freed Ministries


Dr. Sandie Freed co-labors with her husband, Mickey Freed, doing the work of the Lord as a ministry team. In addition, they are the founders of Zion Ministries Training Center in Bedford, Texas, and Lifegate Church International. Sandie has traveled nationally and internationally teaching dreams and visions seminars and on spiritual discernment. Her ability to adequately prophesy and discern spiritual strongholds over regions has released numerous breakthroughs for individuals and ministries. Sandie has authored Dream On, and eleven other books, most of which are in several different languages. Dr. Sandie and Apostle/Pastor Mickey are ordained with Christian International Ministries, serving on their Board of Governors. They have been married since 1973, and have one daughter, Kimberly.

What if the Things You’re Going Through are Pieces of a Puzzle That Will Completer You?

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Kriza Jo L. Tanduyan

God is piecing together something beautiful…

Have you ever wondered why you are going through a lot of things in your life right now? Have you ever tried asking God why you need to go through a lot of pain? Have you ever thought of going to a place where nobody knows you and starting life all over again?

Life can give us so many surprises. So many ups and downs. So many unexpected moments that sometimes leave us empty and lost. It is full of events that will either build or break us. Moments that will make us happy or sad.

But despite this changing world, we need to consider that things happen for a reason. Maybe you are facing pain right now because you need to gain strength for the coming days in your life.

Maybe you are in a situation where you don’t know what to do next because you need to learn how to trust even in moments when you don’t see what’s ahead of you.

Maybe life became so difficult for you because you need to learn the things which you need to do in order for you to be able to handle tomorrow’s blessings.

And maybe you are currently doing your best right now, but still, nothing has happened because you need to learn the value of hard work.

God is not blind.

He knows everything you’ve been through. He knows that you are struggling. He knows all your problems. It’s just that God values your character more than your success. He wants to build the foundation first before giving you the greatest desire of your heart. For you to be able to enjoy every blessing to your heart’s content.

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose. (Romans 8:28)

God is working in your life. And even if everything doesn’t make sense right now, one day, you will be amazed by how He will perfectly complete all the pieces together. You will be surprised by how He will turn your mourning into dancing and your sadness into gladness.

And most of all, you will be overwhelmed the moment you realize that God didn’t waste every single tear you shed. Take heart! Everything you’ve been through will eventually complete you in God’s perfect timing.

This article was written by Kriza Jo L. Tanduyan.

2019: Prepare for Your Blessings and Turnaround

Ivan Roman, Medford, OR

Romans 8:28, “And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.”

We are not only entering into a new calendar year, but we are also entering a brand new season prophetically. A friend of mine used the phrase “year of the turnaround,” and it reverberated in my spirit. Just when you thought you were going to lose it all God is going to turn it around in your favor.

Prepare for Your Blessings and the Unexpected!

Regardless of what is happening in the world, the Church is going to experience 11th-hour miracles. Most of us have been contending for a breakthrough so long that we don’t know how to prepare for it when it happens. I heard the Lord say, “Prepare for your blessings.” I’ve received more invitations to speak than I have ever had in my life. My challenge wasn’t asking God to open doors but navigating which doors to go through. This is what is about to happen to you. The test in this season is how we navigate abundance.

I also heard, “Prepare for the unexpected.” I’m not sure how to prepare for the unexpected, but I know childlike faith and expectation is required. Many of us have been so discouraged waiting for the promises that we have trained ourselves to lower our expectations.

Time to Dream

Psalm 26:1 says, “When the LORD restored the captives of Zion, we were like dreamers.”

God is inviting us to dream with Him. The Lord is asking His friends in this hour, “What do you want?” I saw a vision of angels listening in on our conversations and writing them in a book. God is listening to the deepest desires of our hearts and taking note of them.

Malachi 3:16, “Then those who feared the Lord talked with each other, and the Lord listened and heard. A scroll of remembrance was written in His presence concerning those who feared the Lord and honored His name.”

Fear of the Lord and Visitations of Power

The fear of the Lord is to hate evil, as purity is on God’s heart. Many of us are being invited to Gilgal, the place of circumcision, to allow God to remove things that hinder our walks with Him.

I have been having vivid memories of the late Jill Austin lately; how she was a friend of the Holy Spirit and walked in the glory and power of God. I saw the Lord looking for those who have been through the refiner’s fire and are hungry for encounters with Him. I saw it like an atomic bomb in the spirit. His power is going to fall on entire congregations again. The power won’t be able to be controlled and will offend many.

Evangelists and Millennial Miracle Workers

I saw the Lord take evangelists from the field and put them in the pulpit of local churches. These revivalists will help to awaken churches that have been sleeping and raise up a new breed of Believer and a new wineskin of the Church. I saw repeatedly the Lord handing His people power tools. I understood that the Lord is releasing “Power Gifts” (gift of faith, miracles, and healing) for the harvest.

I saw a vision of a graduation with cap and gowns. I was permitted to read the diploma and it said, “Miracle Workers.” God is graduating not just healers, but miracle workers, and many will come from the Millennial generation.

“Tri-generational Blessing” and Financial Miracles

I saw a three-strand chord and heard, “Tri-generational blessing.” Every generation needs each other. The new wineskin of the Church is family and every generation has their place of honor. More leaders will begin to make room for every generation as they partner with God’s heart.

At the church I lead, Empowered Life, people have been having money appear in their wallets and cars supernaturally. God is reminding us that He is our provider regardless of what’s happening around us. Thanksgiving and generosity should be our response to His provision.

Receiving God’s Love

As I was asking the Lord what to write next, my 9-year-old son came into my room and told me God gave him a word. He saw a cartoon of the story where Jesus broke the bread, blessed it and fed the people. He said the Lord told him, “Don’t work for My love, learn to receive it.” My son told me God wants His people to stop working for His love. They have to receive it. WOW! I was literally praying and typing when he walked in!

Everything that comes from God is received by grace. I wholeheartedly feel that those who have embraced sonship are experiencing radical favor. Seeking God’s face and receiving His favor go hand-in-hand. Mature sons and daughter know promotion comes from the Lord. These are just a few of the things the Lord is showing me for this upcoming season. I am filled with joy and expectation of all God is about to do!

Ivan Roman
Friend of God Ministries


Ivan & Erica Roman are revivalists, prophetic teachers and senior leaders at Empowered Life Church in Medford, Oregon. Ivan has a Master’s Degree in Theology and has studied at the Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry in Redding, California. He travels both locally and internationally, ministering in Bible schools, conferences and churches. Ivan & Erica have a heart to see God’s Kingdom demonstrated in everyday living. They currently reside in Medford, Oregon with their three boys Isaiah, Aren and Ezra.


The Truth About How Secret Sin Can Impact a Whole Family

kris vallotton pornographyKris Vallotton

Pornography is a serial killer! It violates your soul, destroys your relationships, and derails your future. Many people who are stuck in porn (and other secret sin) don’t realize the painful effect that it has on their family and children. In 1 Corinthians 7:14, the Bible says that one believing parent sanctifies the home. This truth can work the other way around and a parent can open the door to demonic activity for their whole family… people who are trapped in addiction often wonder why their children are oppressed or why their spouse is not happy, and it is often because their secret sin has opened doors and created ripple effects of pain.

The truth is that whether you realize it or not, and no matter how hard you try to hide and cover up your secret, this kind of sin breeds a myriad of effects that go far beyond the individual who is stuck in bondage!

For example, if a husband is stuck in secret sin, it can be extremely common for the wife to play the protector of the family role and try to “be strong for everyone.” But what ends up happening when the man takes the journey of healing from hidden sin and getting free from his bondage? The wife may realize that she has her own pain to work through from bearing the weight of her husband’s sin! Keep reading and you’ll see that very often this is a journey of 2 or more people getting well together. And hear me on this—the kind of bondage I’m talking about is not just relegated to pornography; it’s also about alcoholism, work addiction, or any place where you try to hide your pain.

Betsy Jacobs is an author, speaker, and life-coach and her story is one I hope many of you will glean freedom from. Check out this incredibly raw and real story of a wife who was left in the wake of her husband’s addiction to pornography, and how God intervened to heal them.


On our one year wedding anniversary, my husband introducedL me to porn. While I was slicing up the top tier of our wedding cake that had been so perfectly preserved just for this occasion, he was planning to invite me in on an addiction that he’d held secret since childhood. What became of our marriage in the following years after that night was a literal nightmare. In my book, Awakening Your Prophetic Voice, I described our marriage like this:

“At the time, my husband was an ordained youth pastor who self-medicated with pornography. He was more than a little bitter, at times suicidal, and though he was an excellent provider his tendencies were to ‘stuff and puff.’ On the verge of an emotional breakdown, he stuffed his pain and then it came out in huff-and-puff rages that were emotional terror attacks. I, myself, was more of a ‘shove and unplug’ type—a full-blown hidden stash of junk food in every room, an emotional binge eater who used food like a cutter uses a razor blade.”

This is the sanitized version of what our life was. When my husband was Jekyll and Hydeing it, I was smiling and saying all the right things, hopeful it would work itself out but emotionally deferred in every possible way.

When he came clean and confessed to our family and friends that he needed help, I smiled and supported, again, but I was far from okay. It’s a conflicting experience to spend years fighting to protect a relationship from the very person you are in a relationship with, but his breakthrough had been my sole prayer for years and now it was here.

As I watched others console and comfort my husband during his healing process, truthfully I grew angrier by the day. I felt as if I had been abandoned in the proverbial graveyard that he dragged me to and he never once stopped to notice if I had walked out of that living hell with him. I hadn’t.

It’s truly hard to understand the complexities of why women stick by, protect, or even enable a relationship in the height of dysfunction unless you’ve walked through it. Note: I’m not endorsing or condoning women to stay in a situation that is unhealthy, I’m just acknowledging those that do. I believe, right now, there are many women who are living out exactly what I’m describing. To all the women who’ve embraced the hand of hope while standing in the long-casted shadows of a spouse’s secret shame, I’m embracing your hand now. You’re not alone.

In an effort to not disrupt his healing process, and mostly because I was emotionally numb and had lost my voice, I didn’t share with him the pain I was in…until the day I did. One unexpecting day all the words, every word, came out. I don’t remember what triggered this vomit of fury but it wasn’t pretty!

I’ll never forget looking into my husband’s eyes. Expecting he’d become defensive and revert back to old bullying tactics that admittedly I hadn’t seen in a long while, his eyes softened and he listened. The freedom that radiated from his countenance felt arrogant to my bruised and battered heart.

Somewhere in between the exhaustive screams and the hot tears, my husband told me that I needed to tell someone my side of the story, I needed to share all the ugly details. Did he mean telling about the time I found him huddled up in the garage cutting up his arms, threatening suicide while our babies were fast asleep inside? What about the dozens of times I stole his phone and spent hours in the middle of the night manically tracing his digital footprint knowing all I would discover was an utter disappointment. I wonder if he wanted me to share about the time he discovered I was contemplating divorcing him through a texting conversation with an old high school boyfriend…were these the details he wanted me to share?

It might as well have been Jesus standing across from me telling me to take heart, come out of hiding and not to be afraid, but it was God’s redemptive miracle that it was my husband who was standing in front of me. This was when I realized that it would not be devotion to a doctrine that would save my marriage. It wouldn’t be the grin and bear it terror that optimistic delusion conflicts, rather it was his swift action to enroll us in marital counseling and his full support for me to write openly about my experiences in those early years of our marriage that has healed our relationship so greatly.

My husband and I recently spent eight days in Spain celebrating our 17th wedding anniversary. It was glorious! Our story is one of hope and committed friendship, but if you were to glean anything from our story I’d hope it would be seeing the difference between having true hope in times of hardships versus being deceived by optimistic delusion.

In the first seven years of our marriage, I used religious rhetoric to affirm my inaction and avoidance to allow inexcusable behavior. I placated any and all negativity and was optimistic that things would change, eventually. What I’ve come to learn is that true hope not only can envision what a better day will look like, but it empowers you to take action presently. True hope is acknowledging what can be done today as it’s taking responsibility for the future. Optimistic delusion, on the other hand, can envision a better day but it deflects responsibility and places it in a future circumstance or in the future potential of a person. This all-talk-and no-action way of living is painfully disempowering, enables unhealthy behaviors, and always defers the abundant life God has gifted you for a later day in time.

As it states in James Chapter 2, faith without works is dead; faith being the substance of things hoped for (Hebrews 11:1). If you find the hope of your relationship deferred to a future circumstance that never seems to come, and you are heartsick from the disappointment that delusion brings, then I’m encouraging you to snap out of it! Stop invalidating the warning signs and speak up! Don’t make decisions in your pain but do seek wise counsel—share all the dirty details. This will be a guiding light out of the graveyard that delusion has you stuck in. Know this: you have a sound mind in spite of your pain, you have a voice in spite of the shame. God’s peace will be always be found when you begin to actively take hold of the gift that is your life.

A note from Kris: Betsy’s story happens to be the story of pornography, but people hide their pain in all kinds of things.

When facing painful situations with hope, there is a fine line between faith and fantasy. Fantasy is like false faith. I’m not talking about fantasy books or movies which are created to entertain. I’m talking about fantasy that causes you to live in denial about the facts of your life.

Fantasy and faith may both look like positivity about a negative situation, so what’s the difference? Fantasy doesn’t face the facts! Instead, it numbs you and tricks you into thinking everything is okay without ever looking at the real pain points. Whereas faith can have a vision for the future and still look at the painful facts and feel hopeful.

If you’re in the middle of something difficult, my challenge to you is this: are you able to look at the reality of your life and still feel hopeful? Or in other words, are you living in faith or fantasy? I believe it’s living by faith that creates a pathway to promise, but living by fantasy won’t create a pathway to anything real.

Have you ever been through a situation like Betsy’s? How have you chosen to live in faith over fantasy and delusion? I’d love to hear from you in the comments section below!

Betsy Jacobs is a writer, speaker, and life consultant/development coach. Her devotional study is used by small groups and individuals from around the world, and her coaching practice has allowed her to pastor individuals from all walks of life. She’s taught in online prophetic schools, produced prophetic curriculum and equipped the church in hearing God’s voice for over a decade. Her husband, Ben, and their two sons, Jake and Jackson, are known as a family who walks with God, who has planted them, for now, in Springfield, Missouri. You can connect with Betsy on Facebook.


I found this to be a very healthy article to read and consider and maybe pass on to someone you know. I have never been in a situation like this but as Kris says, there are many ways people hide pain and I have experienced things that involved pain of a different sort. I understand why both people must have healing. I have held a lot of what I experienced for years, even after the other person moved out of the story or died and it has only been in the past four years I’ve been learning things that can be done to obtain healing from God. It is never to late to find healing for pains inflicted by yourself or others.






God Speaks in Many Ways, Even With Numbers


Jodie Hughes

Have you been seeing 1111 or some other numbers over and over, and wondering what on earth it means?

Why would God speak in this way?

An overview:  God is speaking all the time! The question is, are we recognising His voice and what is He saying? God can, and does, speak to us in many and varied creative ways. Of course the most common way is through his word and through his “still small voice” direct to our spirit which is cultivated through reading the bible and prayer. Relationship with God is key to hearing His voice.

I have found God to not be confined in His communication however. Who hasn’t found creation itself to speak deep to our hearts at times, such as a rainbow at just the right moment, or a stunning sunrise that speaks of hope and beauty to us? God can speak through dreams, visions, a timely prophetic word, our devotion books, or through a movie that just shared the heart of God or even, dare I say, a face book post! We can hear God through a sermon or through the wise words of a dear friend, or most importantly reading the bible, or his still, small voice direct to our spirit. In recent years I have found that God is beyond creative and will find a way to share his heart with us.  One way I’ve discovered over recent years, is numbers! Yep, God speaking through numbers, or more precisely the unusual repetition of certain numbers in my life.  This is more common than some would suppose.

By “seeing” numbers, I simply mean seeing the same number over and over all of sudden.  For instance, waking in the night and it’s the same time for night after night, or looking at a clock and its always the same time, or everywhere you look the same numbers keep appearing in the strangest of ways so that you become acutely aware its not a coincidence, but a creative message from God.

I am NOT supporting numerology and do not endorse, encourage or participate in this. I am simply talking about seeing and encountering certain numbers with such regularity that at some point it becomes obvious that God is trying to say something…. and then asking Him about it!

This happened to my husband and I some years ago and it has continued to this day. It’s such a fun way God has spoken to us and now it feels like a “kiss from heaven” when at a crucial moment I see a certain number or wake in the night to see 2:22 for instance. Now, it just makes me smile.

I have encountered many who are experiencing the same thing and asking “what is God saying?” God is getting the attention of his kids!  I have chosen to steward this as best I can and take note over many years when I sense God is speaking in this way.  I’ve prayed and sought Him for meaning when I repetitiously see a number or sequence of numbers that stirs my spirit.

When seeing numbers, I encourage you to take note what you are doing or talking about at the time as this can be key, or the season you are in.  Importantly, always ask God for yourself what he is saying to you.

1111, 111

Awakening, Wake Up Call, fresh spiritual awakening into more, supernatural favour and provision to take possession of promises, transition and alignment, revival.  God is bringing life to the dead things and places.  God is breathing encounters over you to WAKE YOU UP into spiritual clarity, fresh connected relationship with Him, and awakened sense of identity in God and your exciting eternal purpose.

Isaiah 11:11   “In that day the Lord will reach out his hand a second time to reclaim the surviving remnant of his people…”   God is with his remnant.
John 11:11   “After he had said this, he went on to tell them, “Our friend Lazarus has fallen asleep; but I am going there to wake him up.”  Resurrection life, God of the impossible, AWAKENING
Deut 11:11   “But the land you are crossing the Jordan to take possession of is a land of mountains and valleys that drinks rain from heaven.

New authority and ownership, coming into promises, tasting promises, supernatural favour and provision where God leads. 11 can mean transition and so a doubling of eleven can signify a season of intense shaking as things transition into the new. 11 also means alignment and so the shaking brings alignment to allow for awakening and revival.

NOTE:  Many people of differing beliefs are seeing 1111 and it seems to be a common way God is speaking to believers and non-believers alike, getting people’s attention.  In the new age movement this is a known phenomenon where many are aware this a common spiritual occurrence and seeking understanding.  This is a personal “wake up call” from God. God is calling in people into divine purpose for their lives and signalling a season where their hearts are being softened and wooed by God, and hunger ignited. It speaks of an invitation into a personal, spiritual awakening into the mysteries of the kingdom, bringing fullness of life.  God is knocking on the door of their hearts offering “salvation”, an authentic, re-connected relationship with their creator.  Personally, I think God is reminding all of us, He is not in a box and He is creative and fun, and far from boring in His capacity to communicate his heart.