“I’M HUMAN TOO!”
“It’s what I heard when I asked why were you deeply moved when the crowd said, Isn’t this the man who opened blind eyes couldn’t he have kept Lazarus from dying?”
Deeply moved in John 11:38 means, to be moved with anger, to admonish sternly, snort (with the notion of coercion springing out of displeasure, anger, indignation, antagonism), express indignant displeasure with some one; I charge sternly.
It’s always been difficult to reconcile my view of Jesus in this setting where he used intense emotion to raise Lazarus from the dead. It’s almost as if he was saying, “I’ll show you!”
Or when Jesus displayed anger in the temple courts, I know it was righteous anger but I’ve never deal well with God, our Father being this full of emotion.
Again I hear, “I’m human too, you are made in my image, emotions and all.”
Jesus sits across from me, we are in identical chairs facing each other with a coffee table between us. It’s an obvious counseling session.
A sign on the door says “Do Not Disturb, In Session.”
Jesus leans slightly forward in his chair, attentive to my every move. Studying me intently. I’m uncomfortable. We’re close yet I feel distant from him in this setting. A familiar feeling of being at the Principal’s office when I was in school; which was quite frequent.
Jesus speaks first, “I’m human too.”
“Yes, but you’re perfect.”
“You seem to want to keep me in that perfect box of yours.”
Now I’m really uncomfortable. I lean back in the chair, obviously trying to create some distance between us.
Jesus leans in closer, (isn’t that just like him, chasing us down.)
“You realize I made you in my image.”
“Oh yes.” That’s an easy one to answer.
“You know I’m Love and Truth.”
“Yes.” Again easy, but for some reason I feel he’s setting me up. (I know sick, not the heart of God at all.)
Jesus looks me in the eyes. (If he leans any closer he’ll be in my lap). “Do you know how full of emotion I Am?”
Extremely uncomfortable, a fury of memories race across my mind, reminding me of all times I’d been called too emotional, intense; my intensity wears people down. Oh this is getting really uncomfortable.
Jesus breaks through wandering thoughts. “It’s what you do when your deeply moved that matters. I made you to be deeply moved, so I can move deeply in you and through you, emotions allow you to be vulnerable, I made you in my image. To be moved even to the point of rage again unbelief, evil and injustice. I’m teaching you how to be deeply moved to be deeply used.”
I convulse, retch, sobbing breaks me and I crumble. Freedom from condemnation runs through me like a cold steal rod, pulling out deep roots of misunderstood and misconception all at once. I fall back in the chair, all energy has been zapped from my body, peace floods the void where the roots resided.
Jesus whispers, “My love runs deep allowing me to be deeply moved, the rage within manifests as compassion to move the hand of our Father. I have felt every emotion you have. I made you my image, I’m human too, do you understand?”
There’s just enough strength left to nod. Inside my soul a light illuminates truth I’ve never known.
In silence across from Jesus I process, “deeply moved” there’s a sense of acceptance I’ve never experienced.
Jesus breaks the silence, (he’s really good at that), “I’ve never condemned you, never, today I’m setting you free from self-condemnation. Come here.”
I get up and Jesus stands to receive me. I buckle in his embrace. He holds me as if he’s never going to let go. I cling to him.
He whispers, “I’m deeply moved when you allow yourself to be condemned by man’s words.”
He clutches me tighter.
He walks me to the door and says, “I look forward to our next session. too. We’ll go much deeper next time. He smiles that familiar affirming smile. Is that okay?”
As he leads me out the door he says, “Please don’t put me in that box.”
I nod. He smiles again.
John 11.38, Genesis 1.26, Psalm 37.12-13, John 11.35, Proverbs 6.16-19, John 3.16, Psalm 103.31, 1 Kings 3.10, Numbers 11.1, Exodus 4.14, Exodus 34.14, Matthew 14.14
God is being deeply moved in this hour, he is jealous for his people, His fury is for guarding the hearts of his children. He is about to give his response to being deeply moved over the events of this age. He is passionate about dealing with evil and healing broken hearts. His compassion will destroy strongholds and restore lost fortunes, the hearts of his children are his treasure chest. Jesus is human too and he’s deeply moved. Get ready to go deeper and deeper. Restorer of lost fortunes is about to move his hand over the earth.
What the enemy uses for evil God is turning for good. Sometimes our emotions are misunderstood when filtered through condemnation, on the other hand they can be a powerful tool used by God to display the goodness of his Kingdom. Healing is on the way and it going deep.
William Cuccia stands at the top of my list with Mario Murillo, two totally different men; each hearing God in their own way but equally important to the time we are in right now. Warning and Comfort … Hearing God’s warnings and feeling His great love and desire to be with us … so much to be learned and received from both men. I wish I could walk with the Lord and hear His words like William does. I read his words and try to put myself in the picture with him, standing next to him as Jesus speaks to him or puts his arm around him … such a blessing to all of us who don’t have that walk with Jesus. The blessing helps me do the work I have in the Kingdom with more courage … thank you!